EP 43: Do You Feel Safe Enough to Heal?

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Welcome back to Not Alone with Melissa Sue Methvin.

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Today I'm gonna ask you a question.

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Have you ever felt depleted, exhausted, but still doing all the work and still can't pinpoint what's going on in your body?

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Well, it can be on a cellular level.

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And today I am so excited to have Xenia Khan.

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I met her on Ryder Island too, and she is a she is a fountain of information.

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She is a neuroscientist, a biochemist, she is a functional medicine, she is also the founder and creator of the Diamond Way.

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So she, I cannot wait to just share her knowledge because when I was on Ryder's Island and we went on a hike together, I felt we just could talk and talk and talk forever because we align so much on health, uh, you know, our passion.

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Like we're so passionate about health.

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And it was just so fun to talk to you and ask you the questions and almost it validated kind of like things I had learned and and felt in my own body.

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And you just like met me there, and and it was so fun to have that conversation.

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So welcome today, Xenia, all the way from a fellow Canadian from Toronto.

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Thank you so much for that wonderful intro.

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Ah, that walk was heaven.

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It was really heaven.

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I was I was watching that video again the other day and I was reminiscing and it was really magical.

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Like you could feel the energy around around you, the trees, there they were talking.

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They were, and it was my first experience.

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I mean, I know trees are alive, and you know, I do grounding and I always tell my kids, oh, touch this tree.

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And but what you taught me, if we're gonna tell, you know, the listeners here, I had never gone through that before.

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So what we did, we were hiking around this beautiful island, uh, aerial on aerial resort in a BVI is and she's like, Oh, we're gonna stop at this tree.

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And we take off our shoes, and we're grounding, and we put our hands on this tree.

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And then she she puts us through a um, she you you put me through a meditation, like a mantra and breath work with the tree.

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What I felt in my body and what I saw.

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It was so it's so hard to describe, but when I I we were done with all of it and I look at it, I'm like, oh my gosh, I saw all of this and I felt this.

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And you're like, yeah, that's what I saw too.

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So now I go around trying to relive this and it's not working, Xenia.

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I need you again.

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You know, it's so funny because um the first time I experienced that, I used to, I was like so hungry to re-experience that as well.

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And I would go touch every chair and I was getting so frustrated.

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But the sh, you know, what shifted for me was that you could get into that just by not trying.

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So a very, a very spiritually tapped-in person said, you're already there.

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Start from that.

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Don't try to get there.

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Because when you try to get there, you're telling your brain, I'm not there.

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Oh, that's what was happening to me.

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And and I struggle all the time with that too.

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And then constantly my brain will remind me, you're already there.

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Don't chase it, don't chase it.

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Okay, that's a good message.

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What I felt with you over there was very different than what I feel alone or with other people.

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It's your frequency, my frequency, the the forest's frequency.

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We we basically came into coherence, and that was so beautiful.

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I too have not felt what I felt at that moment with myself or with anyone because it was it was Melissa's energy.

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We went on a we went on a trip with our frequency.

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It's like we're imagine we're all musicians and we could play all sorts of music, but a conductor came and made us harmonized.

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That's beautiful.

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Let's do that again.

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I love it.

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Well, how did you get into if you share kind of the beginnings?

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How did you get into all uh, you know, the the this health journey and wanting to become a biochemist and neuroscience and you know, all the learning?

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What triggered all this learning for you?

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Um, so from as early as I can remember, from like age, seven, I I didn't know what, but I knew I wanted to be doing something to help people, be in service.

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And um, you know, I went into studying biochemistry to study the breakdown of how the body is broken down into.

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Then I wanted to get into the mind.

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So I went to getting a master's in neuroscience.

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So it's like if I understand the mind, maybe I'll understand the mind and body connection, right?

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So it's been like a long journey of um of like learning about the body.

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But then really what transformed everything was after I had my son and he had a lot of gut issues, no one was there to really help me.

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And everyone kept saying he's fine.

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So for me, it became so then when I when I felt that everyone was failing me, uh, who I trusted, the medical system, and they're great, but they were just not there to help me.

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So then I really had to get in, get back into science and learn everything that I I knew, but deepen it.

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So for me, you know, it it began with a deep curiosity about life itself when my son was going through them.

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Like, what is going on?

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That's like me, that's all me.

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Right?

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So, as and and you can't ignore the mommy gut feeling.

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You just cannot, no matter how many people called you crazy, you knew deep inside there's more, right?

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So I've always wanted to understand what makes us feel alive, and but I never approached it.

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But for my son, and so that's why I call him my soul coach, because he really got me into that um that path of fully going into all the layers of the physical, the chemical, energetic, and the emotional layer that make us a human being, right?

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Because then before I was only looking into the physical layer um and chemistry, but now getting into the emotional, spiritual, energetically totally transformed everything.

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So my background is in biochemistry and neuroscience.

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So in the beginning, you know, I approached healing through the lens of science.

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But over time, uh, what I realized was there was something science couldn't fully explain.

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That people didn't just heal because of what they did.

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It was because of how they felt and what they believed and the energy they carried with them.

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So there was a moment that shifted everything for me.

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And it wasn't only with my son.

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It's like over the years, by studying and observing clients, when I realized the body isn't a machine to be fixed, but it's a messenger that wants to be heard.

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That little understanding changed everything, like everything for me.

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Um, healing for me now isn't about intervention, like what's going on, how can you fix this?

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It's about remembrance.

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It's remembering the harmony we are designed to live in all the time.

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And when I start dealing with any clients, I start talking to them about what they are feeling, how have they been feeling?

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Um, and that has been a big shift in the way I've been tackling um dealing with clients.

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And clients, I know from the listener, so you host retreats, right?

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And you deal with a lot of people with uh different illnesses, right?

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Uh can you name some of the illnesses that you kind of work with as far as a lot of the patients that you work with?

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Yeah, so I mean, um a lot of the clients that come in, they've tried a lot of different modalities, they've tried a lot of allopathic and um naturopath way, and they're all great, right?

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But it's just when they come, they've kind of lost their hope, they've lost their purpose because they've been hearing over and over, oh, you have only six months to live, only one year to live.

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So the belief system.

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So a lot of the clients I deal with um has been Alzheimer's, Parkinson's, cancer, um, or other life or chronic pain, you know, um, and just to name a few.

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And a lot of the times I'm dealing with just regular day-to-day.

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Like I see a lot of clients online or in person that's out of retreat.

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And just to name a few, that it all starts with, we break it down into the physical layer.

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The chemical physical is the final manifestation of all illnesses.

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Then you have the chemical layer, which is our blood chemistry based on how you what you eat.

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And we deal with TCM, traditional Chinese medicine, Ayurveda, uh, then five elements, cuisine, to bring the body back into resonance with food.

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So we change the chemistry of the blood.

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So whatever illnesses that has been staying in the body, if you raise your frequency, if you change the chemistry, those dis diseases or illnesses can't thrive anymore.

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And then you have the energetic layer, which is, you know, it could be your mantra, your belief system, prayers, um quantum frequency, Nikola Tesla's machine.

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Um changing those also has a huge ripple effect.

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And the deepest layer is all the emotional, um, all the emotions that we've ever wanted to express, but that we didn't.

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So suppression gets stuck.

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I always say suppression is the silent killer.

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That's what I wrote on my first book.

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Because I realize that just with myself.

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So you're saying that's the deepest layer.

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100% suppression, suppression.

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Because, you know, and it could be simply as like sometimes I uh sometimes clients will come and start telling me about their big, big, big problems.

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And I say, pause.

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I'm here to listen to your entire journey, start from the beginning.

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And sometimes it's the littlest thing that people will ignore, but they'll think it's insignificant.

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But something like, okay, a quick example at a client at age four went to an ice cream shop and their parents kind of raised their voice and said, No, you may not have it.

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And at that moment she felt shame, embarrassed, or whatever those emotions, angry, sad, and she suppressed it.

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And she just said, Okay, something like that will turn into um fearful of being around people because she got that embarrassed feeling.

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So it's it's very, it's it's it's those subtle moments that turn into like later on unable to communicate in front of a big crowd.

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So it's so subtle, but those suppressed feelings are what causes a lot of the stagnation in our body, which is stored in our fascia.

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Okay, so the stagnation, if you're trying to explain, some people might not be in the world of energy, like for me, like that makes sense, but it creates stagnation, so stagnation of energy to move through our body, right?

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And I mean you um, you know, that we have like meridians, maybe explaining that to somebody that's maybe not well versed in energy and understanding, but you have the science background.

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So maybe bridging the science in understanding how that works, you know, and what how important it is to have no obstruction in your body energetically.

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Okay, yeah.

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Um, okay, I'll try to explain without confusing.

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I know, like you know, when you're passionate about something the same way, and then it's other people that slow me down.

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They're like, wait, I have no clue what you're talking about.

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So um, so let's do this.

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So, okay, when I talk about emotional, spiritual, energetic layers of healing, I'm really describing how information moves through the body.

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So we tend to think healing happens only in our tissues, right?

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But it actually begins as a signal, an energetic message that tells the body how to function.

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So for example, emotion is what is emotion?

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It's chemistry in motion.

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Every feeling we have releases a biochemical cascade, hormones, neurotransmitters, um, electric impulses.

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So when emotions are unprocessed, that chemistry lingers and it shapes our posture, our breath, even our digestion.

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So the energetic layer is where those emotions originate.

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It's the vibration, the frequency that communicates with every cell.

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So when we shift that frequency through breath and slow down or sound, like a lot of the time I'll tell people to sigh, like movement or even prayer, the body instantly begins to reorganize.

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And the spiritual layer is what gives it all the meaning.

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It's the why behind our healing, the remembering that we're not separate from life.

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When people reconnect to that sense of purpose and belonging, the nervous system calms, the energy flows, and the biology follows.

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So wait, I have to pause because I'm like, oh my gosh, I just love this stuff.

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But I don't want to, you know, your flow too.

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But when you mention that, when that energy is not flowing, it's because they're not aligned with their purpose.

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How often do you hear that with people in the workforce?

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They're working and they're working and they're feeling so stagnant and stuck and energetically it's because it's not following their purpose, right?

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Yeah, yeah, exactly.

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And it doesn't have to be purpose, like um, you know, I want to change the world, right?

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It's really uh, how are you giving service?

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Like, you know, at the end, what changed that shift for me is I want to be in service all the time to all living things, right?

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That's for me.

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Like if I see a plant that's super dry, I'll bring water from drinking and I'll water it, right?

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So it's like, are you living in you?

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What's your highest purpose?

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What lights you up?

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And for my mom, she loves donating and feeding, um, feeding or orphanages, right?

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That's her true passion.

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Sometimes she'll borrow money to do that.

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So when I say like living, living in purpose, a lot of the times someone constantly, and the other thing that I notice with clients, I like to uh hope put them in short-term and long-term goals.

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So that's like getting to purpose because a lot of the time people will tell me it's easier said than done.

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I have bills to pay, I have uh kids to feed, I have I have to pay for a roof over my head, right?

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So I can't really go become an astronaut.

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That that was my purpose before.

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But I'm like, no, think bigger than that.

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Like create short-term goals and long-term goals, create those purposes for you.

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Like, okay, you want to start eating healthy.

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You've been saying that for so long.

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Let's make that your purpose.

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Clearly, your inner guides are telling you you need to eat healthy, right?

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Or sometimes people will tell me, I know, I've been getting these.

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My gut feeling has been telling me I should go for more walks.

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I should, I should do cardio.

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Do it, like set short-term goals, and that could be your purpose.

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That answers like that.

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Yes, yes, I love that.

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I love that.

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And and I notice this all the time because people are like, Well, it's easier said for you because you're living your highest purpose.

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You're like, you're you're you're living that dream that the job you wanted.

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I'm like, I had to work for that for 40 years.

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And and I've had moments, I mean, the whole the whole diamond way is actually a journey of my own life, right?

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Because I've always wanted to, I've I was always curious.

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And all my challenges, I turned it into lessons.

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At that time when I was suffering, whatever it was, of course I didn't see it as a lesson.

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But now that I reflect back, there was that inner voice that told me, okay, what's next?

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There's more to this, that there has to be more to this.

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And you listen to those inner nudges, they're always trying to guide you into the right path, right?

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Yeah, but listening, that's kind of what I talk about too.

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Listening, sometimes people like, I have no clue.

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Because right now, like a lot of people that I talk to, their nervous system is just so dysregulated, they're overwhelmed, they are single mom, you know, working 50 hours.

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So they're like, I'm trying to listen, you know, I'm praying, I'm doing all these things, but it's not clear because probably on the cellular level, they're so depleted as well.

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Right.

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And so to even be able to hear and to listen, because your body will tell you what you need, right?

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If we listen, but what clouds, like for you, from your knowledge, what clouds that clarity?

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Uh, I would honestly say um stress, stress and the fear.

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So I I would like to share something that may answer your question.

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I'm just thinking how that would align because what I've noticed in um in in in the retreats and also when I deal with clients, you know what, after a while you realize that um there's a common pattern in everyone.

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There's always that one, like not one, but there is a pattern.

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You start noticing a pattern, right?

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So what I've noticed in almost almost everyone I work with, including myself, because sometimes I'll catch myself in my negative, negative talk.

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Oh, me too.

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I'm a I'm a human too, you know?

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Uh so what I notice it's in person, in retreats, on my own, is it's the same core pattern that keeps repeating on every single person.

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So beneath the surface, people are often carrying anger, grief, and fear.

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So those emotions are the natural responses of feeling unseen, unheard, and misunderstood.

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And when that happens, we stop speaking our truth.

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We we hold it in.

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That suppression builds like a pressure cooker inside the body.

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And from a physics perspective, you know, uh thermodynamics, energy isn't created or destroyed, only transformed or transferred.

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So when that emotional energy gets trapped, it becomes so stagnant, so stuck in our body.

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And over time, that stagnation shows up physically as tension, exhaustion, or dis ease.

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And if you keep ignoring that, it leads to some sort of illness.

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So the work I do is about creating the kind of safety where that energy can finally move again.

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Sometimes it's through sound, breath, stillness, or even the conversation, having this conversation.

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Then eventually they're able to admit that, you know, I've been feeling really angry.

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I've been feeling that I'm unappreciated, unseen.

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That moment of awareness, when it lands, the body just knows how to release it.

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And it's not about fixing.

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That's what I keep like reminding everyone.

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It's not about fixing, it's about remembering.

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When people feel that freedom in their own body for the first time, there's always this look on their eyes.

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And it's it's like remembering themselves again.

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That's and that part is my favorite because it's it's going to the body and saying, I'm safe, um, I'm worthy of healing.

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Because all those suppression, what what really gets into your cellular level is that people start thinking they'll never heal.

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They're unworthy of healing.

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You know, a diagnosis that uh, you know, is told, Oh yeah, you only have, you know, maybe six months to live or anything, then yes.

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Always.

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Yeah, exactly.

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So then they start believing that they're unworthy of living, they're unworthy of healing, they're they're um they don't feel safe.

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They're their their bodies in in In a in a stuck state.

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So it's all about going back to the nervous system.

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Because are you in fight or flight or rest and repair?

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Yeah, yeah.

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I I see that.

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I actually see that.

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I have a friend who was diagnosed with leukemia, but she her faith is so strong.

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And she from the minute she got that diagnosed, she's like, nope, it's not gonna take me.

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And now she's cancer free, you know?

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And and but she her spiritual practice was so strong that truly I think spoke to herself, really, and allowed her to heal on on top of some of the protocols.

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But uh I think those do you have some miracle.

00:20:39.839 --> 00:20:46.400
I mean, you probably call it something else, but miracle stories at all with some of your patients and okay.

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Um, yeah, quite a quite a few.

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Okay, let me see.

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Um, I want to I know I know I had a whole list of questions, but like I said, I kind of know what the flow and it flows.

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No, I I love it.

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Yeah, I love it.

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I'm just thinking which two to share because I have two.

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Okay, so there is this, there is this woman uh who has been over, oh she's part of something, over 27 years of dealing with severe pain, chronic pain, and you know, it life has been just bringing one thing after another to her.

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Like it started with Lyme, then lupus, then um kidney dialysis, um cancer, and then back and continuing with kidney dialysis.

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It's like one thing after another, right?

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And um there was a and for 27, obviously she wasn't with me for 27 years, but that that was her story.

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She's been with me for a year, and it was it was also like one of the one of the clients that has been with me for the longest.

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And I started asking, like, what is going on?

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Like, how how come she's not healing, right?

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And so one day we're oh she she came to my retreat, and one day we were walking on the beach, and I'm I'm like really trying to understand what's going on with her, right?

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Because at this point, I'm about to tell her, like, I feel I'm doing you a disservice because it goes back to if I'm being of service to others, to living things, right?

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So I'm here to have a hard talk, like I don't want to be a quitter, I also don't want to waste your time, but like I feel like I'm being a disservice to you, what is happening?

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And then it just before I uttered the words, my mouth wouldn't open.

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So then I sat and I was like, Can I do um a diagnosis on you, pulse diagnosis?

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And as I did, it just came that she was not ready to heal.

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And it just started pouring.

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So a lot of the times, a lot of like, yes, I'm I have biochemistry and neuroscience as my in my back pocket, but over the years, my I use a lot of intuition.

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And when I'm with a client, it's like a channel, it just flows.

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The right question flows, the right answers flows, the right story flows.

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So then I looked at her, I'm like, X, Y, and Z, like you're not ready to heal.

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You you don't see yourself as a healed person, right?

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Um, what's going on?

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And at first she was like, No, uh, I am.

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And I'm like, tell me, how does your life look if you're a well person, if you're 100% well?

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And she couldn't, she couldn't.

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And and then we just she just stared in my eyes and she sobbed, and I just held her hand and she cried literally for an hour.

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Wow, an hour, and I just held, and she felt safe for the first time, for the first time.

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Like I'm getting goosebumps as I say say this.

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So she just we we were in the beach, we held hands, eyes to eyes, locking, and I'm just like staring in her eyes, looking at her soul and just seeing the beautiful being she is.

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And it's just she's been programmed in her head that healing wasn't safe for her.

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Because I won't go too much into her detail of her life, but at a very young age, she her pattern showed that whenever she was a little like she wasn't sick or she was 100% better, she was treated horribly.

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She was never given break.

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And so she connected that when she was a little sick, they would bring her food, they would take care of her.

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So the pattern in her brain was I get love when I'm unwell.

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Well, how many children do that?

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I mean, my own children kind of do.

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I'm like, wait, it dawned on me that my kids, if they don't want to go to school, they they tell their mind to get their body sick.

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I've told them that.

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I'm like, I know what you're doing.

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So you need to quit talking to your body this way.

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Because it is true.

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And then I'm like, then I'm like, well, why don't you want to go to school?

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You know, and I but it yeah, I love that you shared that story because how many only got love because they were sick with the only time.

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And you know what?

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Like, okay, our children, I as you said that, I thought back so many times why kids do that too.

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But you know, our kids at least they feel the love.

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Uh, just to share a little more in depth about this, uh, Klein.

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She um she lost her dad, and then her mom left her with like some families that she's never met.

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So, you know, kids, kids, a lot of kids know, most majority kids know parents love them, regardless of how they they interact with each other, right?

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With her, it was a very special case because now she felt her dad left her, her mom left her some other country and and she was gone, right?

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But the moment that she realized that she doesn't have to be sick to get love, that she has a whole ecosystem of people who are cheering for her, it was so beautiful.

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For an hour she cried.

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It's like basically, and then after that, she's like, My body forgave me for the first time.

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Wow, yeah.

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And and and and the crazy thing is the next day she was releasing different bowel movements, uh, because everything tells a story.

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She was releasing a white bowel, and I couldn't pinpoint what it was.

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And then I started, like, you know, asking my head, my guides, uh, researching, and basically her entire gut mucus membrane was being released.

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Wow.

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All the old pattern, because you know the gut is the second brain.

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Yes, yes.

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So, and and so I've been working with her for so long.

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Like, remember, I went to the beach to her to tell her, I don't know, I'm being a disservice to you.

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I think we should like like break up, you know, but I've never had to do that.

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And I've and as much as I wanted to say it, I couldn't.

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So I was like, why don't we sit and do a pulse diagnosis?

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Let's just see.

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And it's it came through.

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And when I told her, like, I was staring at her for an hour, and we just held hands and she just cried and cried, and she felt safe to release 20 years of this whatever she was holding.

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Wow.

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That was that was and then the next day her entire bowel movement changed.

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She comes freaking out.

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She's like, Why is this white?

00:27:08.079 --> 00:27:13.200
Like, yeah, because you guys look at people, you know, because you say it see a lot in people's bowel movements.

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I remember you saying you had buckets, you know, I remember you saying that.

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But it's true, because a lot of it will be shown in the gut, right?

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And what is able to be um so because in the gut is the brain connection.

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So when you see the bowel, you kind of see what's going on in the gut, right?

00:27:29.200 --> 00:27:30.960
And what's exactly yeah.

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We're doing we're doing like pH tests, like saliva, urine test, we're doing uh blood pressure, like we're constantly measuring different um different uh different signals that the body is constantly communicating.

00:27:44.880 --> 00:27:53.599
The pulse diagnosis is great for me because it's on the go and I could be like, let me see what your pulse is saying, because those pulse is connected to your major nine organs.

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So based on the based on the pressure, based on the speed, it tells me so much.

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That day it didn't tell me any of this.

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It's like her guides literally channeled through me.

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And once that happened, her 27 years of that stagnation that she was feeling finally released.

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And for like imagine crying for an hour, right?

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Like how how healing it must have been.

00:28:15.119 --> 00:28:20.240
So, like, so I've witnessed many transformations that most people would call miracles, right?

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But to me, they're not supernatural.

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They're they're what happens when all the layers of like a person finally comes into coherence, their mind, their emotions, their energy, and their belief system.

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So, like I often uh like a single moment, at a single moment, a moment where someone feels safe, worthy, seen like this woman, and finally ready to release what their body has been holding for so many years, their nerves, their nervous system literally shifts.

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Like I saw her body after crying, like literally soften, right?

00:28:54.799 --> 00:29:02.960
So it softened, and then that that entire nervous system shifts from fight or flight to finally I can breathe, rest, and repair.

00:29:03.119 --> 00:29:08.720
The fascia softened because I've tried doing fascia on her, but her fascia would push me back.

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It wasn't ready.

00:29:11.839 --> 00:29:13.599
I've noticed you do that on the island.

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You did that for a few people where there's different pressure points.

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Is that what that you work on to relieve?

00:29:19.839 --> 00:29:23.519
So it it's pressure points, which is the meridian.

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It kind of gives me the math of the body, but the fascia is basically a connective tissue that runs on our every organ, every cell, every tissue, every bone.

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You know, we say we're a skeletal system, but that's actually incorrect because no two bones connect.

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Because if it did, we have arthritis, we have pain.

00:29:42.720 --> 00:29:45.039
The only two bones that connect are our jaws, right?

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Like the jaw bones.

00:29:46.400 --> 00:29:58.319
So we're actually a fascia system because the fascia is intertwined into everything in our body, and it's such an intelligent being because it communicates with the field around us.

00:29:58.400 --> 00:30:09.920
What Bruce Will, um Bruce Willis, Bruce Lipton, what Bruce Lit, what Bruce Lifton talks about that we have our field and our field uh and we connect to the field.

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So how do we connect to the field?

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It's our fascia, it's communicating with our field, it's communicating with our body, it's a gel-like system.

00:30:17.839 --> 00:30:23.839
So it holds onto toxins, memory, uh, emotions, all of it, right?

00:30:24.000 --> 00:30:30.160
So the other fun part that um as I'm talking about this, what reminds me of, have you heard of Dr.

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Imoto's work?

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No.

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Okay, so this you're going to love this.

00:30:34.640 --> 00:30:38.160
So, you know, as you know stuff, yeah.

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Keep going.

00:30:40.880 --> 00:30:45.519
So as you know, we're approximately 70 to 75 percent water, right?

00:30:45.680 --> 00:30:47.920
Um, and and and and water holds memory.

00:30:48.079 --> 00:30:48.799
So Dr.

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uh Mas, what's his name?

00:30:51.039 --> 00:30:54.240
Mas Masaru, Masaru Imoto, his last name is Imoto.

00:30:54.559 --> 00:30:58.880
His work, he it's a Japanese doctor, his work showed this visually.

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So he exposed water to loving words and then froze it.

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The crystals that formed were beautiful, intricate patterns.

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And when he exposed the water to fear, anger, or negativity, the crystals were just like disordered and very chaotic.

00:31:16.000 --> 00:31:27.839
So if water responds that dramatically to just words and we are mostly water, then our words, belief system, our emotional frequency are constantly shaping the structure inside our bodies.

00:31:28.079 --> 00:31:33.920
The the fascia, which is like as I mentioned, is a fluid-based um subtent substance, right?

00:31:34.000 --> 00:31:35.680
It's like spiderweb all over us.

00:31:35.759 --> 00:31:38.079
It holds memory, it listens, it changes.

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Why our self-talk is so important, right?

00:31:41.279 --> 00:31:46.480
So important because it re it reorganizes our entire belief system, right?

00:31:46.880 --> 00:31:50.319
And um uh around our thoughts, as you said, our belief.

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And so I always tell people that when someone shifts from I'm broken to I'm becoming or I'm afraid to I'm safe now, these changes have like your entire body, your even your voice, I notice change, right?

00:32:05.359 --> 00:32:14.960
So the internal water starts reorganizing, their fascia reorganizes, their cells reorganize, the entire body mirrors this new frequency.

00:32:15.119 --> 00:32:25.119
The moment of alignment with emotional, energetic, biological, that's what creates everyone, um, the what everyone would call miracle, what happens, right?

00:32:25.279 --> 00:32:29.519
But I've seen this in in large uh retreat spaces or even one-on-one.

00:32:30.079 --> 00:32:33.680
Healing isn't limited by like proximity only, right?

00:32:33.759 --> 00:32:35.200
It's shaped by resonance.

00:32:35.359 --> 00:32:40.400
So when someone chooses safety, worthiness, and truth, the body responds instantly.

00:32:40.640 --> 00:32:45.279
So you asked me what creates these miracles, or like you use something about miracles, right?

00:32:45.440 --> 00:32:52.160
It's a shift in frequency, a shift in story, a shift in what your inner water is listening to all the time.

00:32:52.480 --> 00:32:55.200
So then, okay, because I feel things very deeply.

00:32:55.279 --> 00:32:58.079
So I was just having a discussion before about this.

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So it's like my body speaks first, but sometimes my mind doesn't catch up to like what's that information.

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Like I can, you know, I'm beside somebody and I feel a different energy, you know, and I can't understand what that is, but it's like almost their body energy is sending me a signal, like almost like it's not safe or something.

00:33:18.960 --> 00:33:20.000
I don't know what it is, right?

00:33:20.240 --> 00:33:22.000
I'm still trying to figure that out.

00:33:22.319 --> 00:33:32.319
So, what I what I notice is that um a lot of the times we analytical people will constantly go to our mind to determine what that feeling is.

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And um, when I work on fascia with a client 101 in my room, it's just me and that person, I'm actually out of my head completely.

00:33:41.920 --> 00:33:49.279
Because when I'm in my head, my analytical brain is trying to um do all these experiments in my head.

00:33:49.440 --> 00:33:50.000
What is this?

00:33:50.079 --> 00:33:53.279
Well, you know, uh all the experiments, all the questions, how is this happening?

00:33:53.359 --> 00:33:53.920
What is happening?

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Where is this coming from?

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Right.

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So then it takes us away.

00:33:56.960 --> 00:34:03.039
But if what it what you're feeling, if you go more into your heart space, and I don't mean like, oh, get into your body.

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I mean like, where are you feeling it?

00:34:06.000 --> 00:34:07.759
Because you're very intuitive.

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When you're around this individual and you're feeling whatever you're feeling, you've tapped into, like, you know, we have an aura around us, six feet, right?

00:34:15.440 --> 00:34:17.519
And so you've tapped into their aura.

00:34:17.599 --> 00:34:24.239
So if you really get into like get into their field and what you're feeling, it's probably what they're feeling.

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So sometimes when I'm working on someone, I feel very overwhelmed.

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I feel very rushed.

00:34:29.679 --> 00:34:32.639
And um, I'll ask them, Do you have somewhere to be?

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And they're like, Um, you know, uh, I I don't, but I'm just worrying about the traffic.

00:34:38.320 --> 00:34:40.719
And I'm like, can you just let go?

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Or the other ten.

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I know that's hard.

00:34:43.360 --> 00:34:48.480
Now when we we don't people know you feel things, you're like when you mention things, okay, there's something's off.

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What's going on?

00:34:49.760 --> 00:34:50.639
Yeah, right.

00:34:50.960 --> 00:34:54.079
And then I'm like, can we just come be here?

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You know, like you're here for your healing.

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Let's fully be here.

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Forget the traffic.

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Do you have somewhere to be?

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Like, no.

00:35:01.280 --> 00:35:02.719
I'm like, then don't worry about traffic.

00:35:02.880 --> 00:35:06.639
You, you, you, you'll get traffic or not get traffic regardless.

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Why hinder your healing?

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That's going to happen right now, right?

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Get into the presence that your body is here in a safe place to heal.

00:35:15.519 --> 00:35:23.440
And other times I'll feel uh like I will be working on them and I'll feel this like um anxiety.

00:35:23.519 --> 00:35:27.360
And then I have to pause and I go into again my feeling like, is this my anxiety?

00:35:27.440 --> 00:35:28.639
Because it could be mine, right?

00:35:28.719 --> 00:35:29.440
It could be mine.

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And if it is mine, I say, you're not welcome here.

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Please leave.

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I'm only with this person because I I tell myself, become the nobody.

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Like, I'm not Xenia, so that my emotions don't come in.

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But when I do feel that stress or that anxiety, I'm like, how are you feeling?

00:35:43.440 --> 00:35:44.400
Are you feeling nervous?

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It's like a little because I don't know what to expect.

00:35:46.880 --> 00:35:48.480
I'm like, and you don't have to know.

00:35:48.719 --> 00:35:54.079
So, so that thing that you're feeling around people, get into it and feel where are you feeling?

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Is it yours?

00:35:55.199 --> 00:35:56.400
Is it theirs?

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I like that.

00:35:58.480 --> 00:36:04.159
Well, now you got me thinking, like, because a lot of the time it's mine too.

00:36:04.320 --> 00:36:05.840
And I have to say, Zenia, get up.

00:36:05.920 --> 00:36:08.719
You're not, it's I'm I'm a nobody, I'm not Xenia right now.

00:36:08.800 --> 00:36:10.800
I have to like, it's a constant work.

00:36:10.960 --> 00:36:14.559
It's you know, my clients will sometimes be like, Yeah, but you have it easy.

00:36:14.639 --> 00:36:17.199
I'm like, that's the biggest joke.

00:36:17.360 --> 00:36:22.800
It's not because I know this, like I'm constantly in an observable state.

00:36:23.519 --> 00:36:25.199
Yes, me too, me too.

00:36:25.440 --> 00:36:31.360
Yeah, more so once you become you observe, you're aware, now observe every like especially my children, you know.

00:36:31.519 --> 00:36:40.239
Yeah, I was like, oh, and then you know, the the um and the the repair that you have to do.

00:36:40.320 --> 00:36:54.159
I mean, if you're doing that live for parents right now listening, and they're like, Oh, I kind of have to do some repair, you know, with my kids now, as far on a cellular level, maybe I should have said that differently.

00:36:54.480 --> 00:36:59.920
Do you think by just communication and maybe presence?

00:37:00.159 --> 00:37:02.880
Like, what would be the best to repair afterwards?

00:37:03.440 --> 00:37:04.239
Okay, okay.

00:37:04.480 --> 00:37:06.800
So um, it's funny that you asked me this.

00:37:06.960 --> 00:37:10.880
Like, I came back from Mexico six days ago.

00:37:11.119 --> 00:37:16.719
So on my last day that I'm flying back, uh, my flight is at 6 p.m.

00:37:17.199 --> 00:37:19.280
And my mom calls me at 10 a.m.

00:37:19.440 --> 00:37:24.239
and she's freaking out about my son vomiting and she didn't want to worry me.

00:37:24.400 --> 00:37:29.360
He's he started this from the night before, and he's holding nothing, nothing at all.

00:37:29.440 --> 00:37:30.960
And I'm like, okay, calm down.

00:37:31.119 --> 00:37:34.000
His body is purging, it's nothing, don't worry about it.

00:37:34.079 --> 00:37:35.920
And she's freaking out, but he's not keeping anything in.

00:37:36.000 --> 00:37:37.519
I'm like, dry fast.

00:37:37.679 --> 00:37:38.800
Why does he have to eat?

00:37:38.960 --> 00:37:40.079
Like, think of yourself, right?

00:37:40.159 --> 00:37:42.559
So I I tell her and he she calms down.

00:37:42.800 --> 00:37:52.079
But obviously, my son is seeing her reaction, seeing my sister's reaction, and they're acting like he has some serious disease or something, right?

00:37:52.239 --> 00:37:58.880
So then I come back and he's still so my daughter had it and she was done in a it in a day and a half.

00:37:59.039 --> 00:38:01.920
This was like 10 days ago, because I was here.

00:38:02.000 --> 00:38:07.599
I, you know, but so when I came back, Zayn looks at me and he's like, Mama, why am I going through this?

00:38:07.760 --> 00:38:07.920
Right?

00:38:08.000 --> 00:38:10.400
Like he's he's like, Am I okay?

00:38:10.719 --> 00:38:13.599
And I immediately knew the programming that happened, right?

00:38:13.760 --> 00:38:18.079
And so uh I look at Zane, I'm like, hey Zane, do I look worried?

00:38:18.400 --> 00:38:21.519
Like, like and he's like, No, I'm like, I'm your mom.

00:38:21.679 --> 00:38:23.679
If anyone should be worried, it's me, right?

00:38:23.760 --> 00:38:28.400
I'm biologically programmed to worry about you, to take care of you, and to love you.

00:38:28.559 --> 00:38:30.719
Like, I can't even go out of that biology.

00:38:30.880 --> 00:38:31.760
And he's like, Yeah.

00:38:31.920 --> 00:38:33.920
I'm like, okay, why am I not worried?

00:38:34.079 --> 00:38:35.440
Because you're upgrading.

00:38:35.599 --> 00:38:43.199
You're upgrading, you're not sick, you're nothing is wrong with your body's letting go of all the things that it doesn't need because you're growing.

00:38:43.440 --> 00:38:48.320
Your birthday is coming up, you're going, you're up like when my iPhone needs to get an upgrade.

00:38:48.400 --> 00:38:48.960
What do I do?

00:38:49.039 --> 00:38:53.440
I go and delete a lot of things to create space for the upgrade.

00:38:53.599 --> 00:38:59.360
And he's like, Oh, and then I hugged him, and then I felt that's where my intuition came in.

00:38:59.440 --> 00:39:01.679
His heart and his liver started talking to me.

00:39:01.760 --> 00:39:04.320
Um, um, we'll get into that window.

00:39:04.800 --> 00:39:08.000
So I was like, hey, Zane, can I like repeat after me?

00:39:08.079 --> 00:39:11.039
So I held his heart and I said, Thank you, body.

00:39:11.360 --> 00:39:12.159
I love you so much.

00:39:12.320 --> 00:39:14.960
You've been doing such a good job in taking care of me.

00:39:15.119 --> 00:39:17.599
You're releasing everything that no longer serves me.

00:39:17.760 --> 00:39:18.880
And I love you so much.

00:39:18.960 --> 00:39:20.559
You work day in and day out.

00:39:20.639 --> 00:39:22.400
I promise to take care of you better.

00:39:22.639 --> 00:39:23.440
I love you.

00:39:23.679 --> 00:39:26.159
I I don't take the time to thank you enough.

00:39:26.320 --> 00:39:27.920
And this has been really difficult.

00:39:28.000 --> 00:39:29.440
I'm I'm ready to heal now.

00:39:29.519 --> 00:39:30.719
I'm safe to heal.

00:39:30.960 --> 00:39:32.400
Can we get over with this?

00:39:32.559 --> 00:39:34.320
And then we we said, I love you.

00:39:34.480 --> 00:39:37.280
We all that PD and vomit after that.

00:39:37.519 --> 00:39:38.159
Wow.

00:39:38.800 --> 00:39:43.760
You know, but when I wasn't here, my mom and sister, and they said they did it out of love.

00:39:43.840 --> 00:39:45.280
I'm not saying anything about them.

00:39:45.519 --> 00:39:46.880
That's how they grew up, you know.

00:39:46.960 --> 00:39:49.840
They they were like, Oh my god, he's throwing up, he's losing energy.

00:39:49.920 --> 00:39:52.159
Look at he looks like a skeleton.

00:39:53.440 --> 00:39:55.519
The fear, the fear, the anxiety.00:39:55.679 --> 00:39:57.119


Yes, yes, yeah.00:39:57.360 --> 00:39:59.280


So, and it's that sudden shift.00:39:59.360 --> 00:40:00.960


So when I said I'm not worried.00:40:01.119 --> 00:40:01.760


He felt safe.00:40:01.840 --> 00:40:02.000


Okay.00:40:02.079 --> 00:40:03.760


If my mom is not right, I'm fine.00:40:03.920 --> 00:40:06.159


And then I was like, You're going through an upgrade.00:40:06.239 --> 00:40:07.199


So he felt empowered.00:40:07.360 --> 00:40:12.480


What I'm like, yeah, when I delete things from my iPhone to do a next upgrade, I'm creating space.00:40:12.639 --> 00:40:13.920


Your body is doing that.00:40:14.079 --> 00:40:20.239


It's the most intelligent computer system that has ever been uh created that has ever existed.00:40:20.400 --> 00:40:21.920


So he's like, Oh yeah, right.00:40:22.079 --> 00:40:24.079


And he started feeling really good.00:40:24.320 --> 00:40:28.960


And then when we started talking to his body, like I just trust his heart and I knew what his heart wanted to.00:40:29.360 --> 00:40:34.320


So along with this is where my I love the work because I bridge science and spirit.00:40:34.480 --> 00:40:40.480


Um my biochemistry, meridian, neuroscience gave me a whole map of the body.00:40:40.639 --> 00:40:48.800


So when I see something stuck around the heart or the liver, it gives me like a whole map of where I can move the energy out, what I need to say.00:40:48.960 --> 00:40:56.960


And in my intuition comes in, and then we talk to the cells, the organs, the higher self, whatever you want to call it.00:40:57.280 --> 00:41:09.920


Then when we repeat it, what wants to be what they want to be thanked for, what they want to be apologized for, the body feels so good, like, oh, I've been seen, I've been heard, I'm not alone.00:41:10.159 --> 00:41:13.199


And and it this literally happened six days ago.00:41:13.440 --> 00:41:20.320


And after vomiting for two and a half days, when I said that shift happened, he did not vomit again.00:41:20.639 --> 00:41:21.199


Wow.00:41:21.519 --> 00:41:22.079


You're beautiful.00:41:22.320 --> 00:41:23.599


They have such a good mom.00:41:23.920 --> 00:41:24.719


That's a great one.00:41:24.880 --> 00:41:26.000


I'm gonna have to use that.00:41:26.320 --> 00:41:27.760


Yeah, use that all the time.00:41:28.000 --> 00:41:30.639


I'm like, you're upgrading, you're upgrading kids.00:41:30.960 --> 00:41:32.719


Yes, I love that.00:41:32.960 --> 00:41:34.320


I know that's huge.00:41:34.480 --> 00:41:41.440


Yeah, to teach them at the young age how to talk to their body, to their organs and say stay safe.00:41:41.519 --> 00:41:46.159


Because a lot of times I do find kids, they they want safety from mom from their provider.00:41:46.960 --> 00:41:54.639


And when they're not, you know, you when you're you know, when the primary provider is not there, obviously there's lack of safety, right?00:41:54.800 --> 00:41:58.559


They you know like I know personally that's that's me.00:41:59.039 --> 00:42:02.639


Uh when I'm away, they feel safe with me, right?00:42:02.800 --> 00:42:04.079


And of course, you're there.00:42:04.719 --> 00:42:09.519


So that signal is there, and I think that definitely affects them.00:42:09.760 --> 00:42:11.599


It's interesting now that I think of it.00:42:11.679 --> 00:42:15.440


I'm like, oh, every time I've kind of gone away on a longer trip, something happens.00:42:15.519 --> 00:42:22.239


My daughter ends up in an emergency or this and that, and it's like, oh, their bodies is probably not feeling as safe.00:42:22.639 --> 00:42:27.760


Yeah, they're not feeling safe, they're not feeling like your love is the ultimate love, right?00:42:27.840 --> 00:42:31.440


They're not feeling the same love, they're not feeling um heard.00:42:31.599 --> 00:42:36.159


You probably you probably give them that safety that they're always hurt.00:42:36.800 --> 00:42:39.119


No one can replace their mom, you know what I mean?00:42:39.280 --> 00:42:45.199


So when you're not there, their their environment, internal and external, changes.00:42:45.440 --> 00:42:55.199


So chemistry-wise, biochemistry-wise, their internal chemistry maybe titans, their fascia, titans, bracing, bracing for mommy's not here, so I have to protect myself.00:42:55.440 --> 00:42:58.559


And when you're contracting, there's no healing because you're bracing.00:42:58.639 --> 00:43:06.000


Like an animal, um, I always tell people, like, especially in the world we live in right now, we're always racing.00:43:06.159 --> 00:43:09.199


Not just back in the days, we had to go fight a bear, right?00:43:09.360 --> 00:43:13.679


So we braced, our body went into fight or flight, and when we're done, all that got released.00:43:13.760 --> 00:43:18.239


But right now, we're stuck in this fight or flight all the time, but there's no bear.00:43:18.320 --> 00:43:28.159


But we are getting with chemical pollution, the stress in our body, water, uh, the news, the constant, everyday, you know, the day-to-day stress.00:43:28.320 --> 00:43:29.840


So we're constantly in that stress state.00:43:29.920 --> 00:43:44.159


So our fascia constructs, and then it it there's no way for that hydration to uh not I don't mean hydration by drinking water, but I mean our fascia needs to be hydrated, it needs to be expanding for energy to flow.00:43:44.320 --> 00:43:52.800


And you know, what we call fascia, um as I'm diving more and more into it, in traditional Chinese medicine, it's the meridian.00:43:53.199 --> 00:44:00.159


So 5,000 years old, so um they they were dealing with the meridian system, which is basically the fascia, right?00:44:00.400 --> 00:44:06.159


Um the uh talking about kids and you're not being um there when you're traveling.00:44:06.320 --> 00:44:12.559


One thing I teach the kids, and I mean they're children, uh my son is 10, my daughter is six, so they don't always remember.00:44:12.719 --> 00:44:17.599


But what I tell them is before they go to bed, three grateful statements all the time.00:44:17.679 --> 00:44:27.280


And whenever they're eating, I tell them to place their hands over their food, and I say, I'm like, you know, everything is frequency, everything is frequency.00:44:27.440 --> 00:44:31.920


So you you are a frequency, this food that's going to go in your body's frequency.00:44:32.079 --> 00:44:42.159


So I'll tell them to hold their food, put both their hands over it, and I'll say, you know, um, like whatever grace you want to give, you could give, like, thank you for this beautiful food.00:44:42.239 --> 00:44:48.719


And then after that, I'll say, Hi, my cells, you know what my body needs, and you know what my body does not need.00:44:48.800 --> 00:44:51.679


As this food enters my body, make it my medicine.00:44:51.840 --> 00:45:00.159


As it enters my body, make this medicine absorb into my cells as it needs, and what no longer serves me, help it get expelled.00:45:00.320 --> 00:45:02.800


And as I eat this, this is my medicine.00:45:03.039 --> 00:45:04.559


And so I teach them that.00:45:04.719 --> 00:45:07.840


So anytime I'm away, they don't do it all the time.00:45:08.079 --> 00:45:13.519


But this also, this also helps them vocalize outward, right?00:45:13.679 --> 00:45:16.559


It's it's while I'm not there, that way they're talking to themselves.00:45:16.880 --> 00:45:18.159


Ah, that's if that helps.00:45:18.559 --> 00:45:19.199


Yes, it does.00:45:19.280 --> 00:45:27.199


Because I do say, yeah, you know, nutrition is light energy, and then prayer over your food, blessing your food.00:45:27.440 --> 00:45:29.760


Um because yeah, it I love that.00:45:29.920 --> 00:45:32.480


That was beautifully said, and thank you for sharing that.00:45:32.719 --> 00:45:34.079


And now you're welcome.00:45:34.320 --> 00:45:37.119


I think you you mentioned faith for a little bit.00:45:37.280 --> 00:45:43.280


I wanted to touch base a little bit on faith because it like I don't know what it was.00:45:43.440 --> 00:45:48.000


You mentioned something about faith was everything, and that it then my brain made a note.00:45:48.239 --> 00:45:52.159


So, like we were saying science and spirituality, right?00:45:52.239 --> 00:46:02.800


Like, they were never meant to compete because a lot of people come and they're like, Oh, I I've been to like Western medicine, I'm not into woo-woo, but I guess I'll give in to the spirituality crap.00:46:02.960 --> 00:46:06.000


And I'm like, and I all and I always laugh.00:46:06.159 --> 00:46:10.480


I'm like, science and spirituality were never meant to compete with each other.00:46:10.719 --> 00:46:15.280


They're simply um two languages that are describing the same truth.00:46:15.440 --> 00:46:19.039


So, my foundation, as I mentioned, is in biochemistry and neuroscience.00:46:19.119 --> 00:46:25.280


So I understand the body's um body through data, through pathways, uh patterns.00:46:25.440 --> 00:46:32.480


But over time, what I realized that science calls energy or frequency, which is really consciousness, right?00:46:32.800 --> 00:46:36.960


So it's it's measurable, but we're only getting into this now.00:46:37.119 --> 00:46:40.159


Um, in like we're having tools to detect it.00:46:40.400 --> 00:46:43.119


So when I work with someone, I'm always using both.00:46:43.440 --> 00:46:49.280


The science gives me the map, as I mentioned, and the intuition tells me which door to open first.00:46:49.440 --> 00:46:54.079


It's like having both sides of the hemisphere of the brain in conversation.00:46:54.159 --> 00:46:59.119


So the left will give me structure and the right will give me, um translates the unseen.00:46:59.519 --> 00:47:02.320


So together they form this beautiful coherence.00:47:02.480 --> 00:47:05.199


So now going to faith, why I explained that.00:47:05.360 --> 00:47:08.639


Faith is what allows that coherence to happen.00:47:08.880 --> 00:47:14.320


Not blind faith, but like trust in the intelligence that designed this whole body, right?00:47:14.480 --> 00:47:16.239


It designed you, it created you.00:47:16.400 --> 00:47:22.400


When you understand how precise this body truly is, you can't help but be in awe of it.00:47:22.639 --> 00:47:30.960


Every chemical reaction, every breath, every emotion is uh orchestrated, is like beautifully orchestrated.00:47:31.119 --> 00:47:32.320


You see how passionate I get.00:47:32.559 --> 00:47:35.440


So for me, I do, I love it.00:47:36.320 --> 00:47:43.199


Intuition is the navigation, science is the structure, and faith is the frequency that carries it all.00:47:43.440 --> 00:47:46.800


That's what really um is the diamond way about, right?00:47:46.880 --> 00:47:50.639


It's the harmony between logic and light, proof and presence.00:47:50.800 --> 00:47:56.880


When we live from that from that place, healing becomes a natural consequence.00:47:57.199 --> 00:47:59.920


So faith is kind of so important.00:48:00.159 --> 00:48:02.559


It's it's it's the binding force, right?00:48:02.639 --> 00:48:07.840


Like you you could come to me and you're like, okay, Xenia, like I'm going through this, help me.00:48:08.079 --> 00:48:13.440


And but deep inside, you're you don't have faith in your body, you just want to go after the magic pill.00:48:13.840 --> 00:48:24.639


So a lot of the time in in when people work with me, there's a lot of education involved so that we rewire the brain because the faith is what makes everything land.00:48:25.679 --> 00:48:35.039


It's the missing ingredient because I I teach them back that your body, the breath that has been in you day in and day out, has never left you.00:48:35.199 --> 00:48:36.800


Take a deep breath in now.00:48:39.119 --> 00:48:48.000


There, your body is listening, your body has the ability to heal, your body has the intelligence and it knows what's good for you, it knows how to heal you.00:48:48.320 --> 00:48:49.840


We just have to get back into faith.00:48:50.079 --> 00:48:51.360


Woo! I love it.00:48:51.519 --> 00:48:52.000


Amen.00:48:53.199 --> 00:48:54.400


I love that.00:48:54.960 --> 00:49:08.000


And I just felt that just intuitively as well, and seeing that and hearing other people uh and and just my own personal journey, you know, where I do think my husband lacked faith.00:49:08.559 --> 00:49:09.280


He really did.00:49:09.760 --> 00:49:16.079


You know, he had a lot of great qualities, but he lacked faith in in how you know we are created and all that.00:49:16.480 --> 00:49:18.159


Like you said, that was the the bridge.00:49:18.239 --> 00:49:24.320


And and there's many things that I notice now, you know, but it it it is.00:49:24.559 --> 00:49:42.480


I have had many guests and and my faith even grew stronger just because as my intuition grew stronger and my clarity and and it just kind of keeps deepening because I keep listening and in and I've always kind of ignored that intuition, but I always have been.00:49:43.119 --> 00:49:48.480


But sometimes you're called crazy or this and that, and and then so you doubt yourself, right?00:49:48.719 --> 00:49:51.679


Yeah, and but now I'm like, no more, you know, no more.00:49:52.079 --> 00:49:55.599


I found my circle of of friends that of crazy.00:49:55.760 --> 00:49:58.480


We've certainly we've found our circle of crazy, you know.00:49:58.639 --> 00:50:04.880


And um to go to your husband, like I've actually um I felt you really deeply.00:50:05.039 --> 00:50:07.679


Uh October to now.00:50:07.840 --> 00:50:18.000


Um, I've lost a really dear friend who who it 10 years ago was a huge impact in my gut health journey when my son was ill.00:50:18.159 --> 00:50:21.679


And you know, um, she she had so much trauma.00:50:21.840 --> 00:50:22.960


She had so much trauma.00:50:23.119 --> 00:50:33.679


And what we've noticed, and I worked with her a lot, but she couldn't come out of the loop of being in this uh in a state of stuck, uh, a state of stress, sorry.00:50:33.920 --> 00:50:44.880


So anytime her life was going well, her body, her patterns turned it into that when you when she that that stress has become her familiar, if that makes sense.00:50:45.039 --> 00:50:46.639


That stress has become familiar.00:50:46.800 --> 00:50:50.639


So whenever I was in, when I when we worked together, she was amazing.00:50:50.719 --> 00:50:52.800


She's like, okay, I'm good, I'm this, right?00:50:52.960 --> 00:50:57.280


Like I'm ready to tackle life, the faith, the faith, all of it combined together.00:50:57.599 --> 00:51:11.760


But when we're not her her old pattern, paradigm, ego, whatever you want to call it, came back and kept saying, This is not safe because the unfamiliar became unsafe to her.00:51:12.239 --> 00:51:17.039


So, and deep root of all was she felt unworthy of love.00:51:17.199 --> 00:51:21.199


And when you feel unworthy of love for yourself, you don't care to live.00:51:21.360 --> 00:51:29.039


And so uh why you were in my thought was in October, she decided to not be with us anymore.00:51:29.360 --> 00:51:40.559


And and you know, um uh I did know her journey for a long time, so a lot of it stemmed from uh teen adolescence, all those trauma, those patterns.00:51:40.719 --> 00:51:51.599


So the other interesting thing is that all our patterning, all our patterns and um uh uh patterns and thoughts are programming, our programming, that's the right word.00:51:51.679 --> 00:51:55.039


All our programming happens the first seven years of our life.00:51:55.199 --> 00:51:59.679


You know, if you know Waldorf, they that's why for until age seven, they don't do any education.00:51:59.760 --> 00:52:01.679


It's all play-based, it's all imagination.00:52:01.760 --> 00:52:05.840


So what happens is up until age seven, we have two brains, right?00:52:05.920 --> 00:52:13.440


Like the not left side, left side, right side, but energetically, uh up until age seven, it's one brain.00:52:14.000 --> 00:52:22.159


So everything that you go through, everything in your life goes through, those emotions, everything, it gets it gets in this brain.00:52:22.320 --> 00:52:23.840


After age seven, it separates.00:52:23.920 --> 00:52:26.320


So based on your right-handed or left-handed.00:52:26.480 --> 00:52:29.519


So if you're right-handed, you're accessing the left side of the brain.00:52:29.679 --> 00:52:32.639


If you're left-handed, you're accessing the right side of the brain.00:52:32.880 --> 00:52:42.639


But let's say you're right-handed and the story of self-love or even money is the root cause of all evil, let's say, right?00:52:43.039 --> 00:52:45.280


It gets stored on the right side of the brain.00:52:45.440 --> 00:52:49.119


You're not accessing that side because you're you're right-handed.00:52:49.360 --> 00:52:54.800


So no matter how much you verbalize, I'm ready to become rich, I'm ready to heal, I love myself.00:52:55.039 --> 00:53:06.800


But the deep-rooted code, like we're if we're a computer, the deep-rooted code that happened until age seven, after it's separated, it went to the right side, it's very hard to reprogram, right?00:53:07.119 --> 00:53:17.280


So, so a lot of the time people will say that they want something, but subconsciously they cannot rewrite their um, they rate they re cannot rewrite their story.00:53:17.519 --> 00:53:21.199


So there's something called psyche that Bruce Lipton taught me.00:53:21.440 --> 00:53:24.159


So why I love fascia, it's the similar sign.00:53:24.400 --> 00:53:31.599


So when you twist your body, cross your leg, twist your hand, now we're accessing both sides of our brain, left and right.00:53:31.760 --> 00:53:34.000


Oh, kind of like the yoga move that I've doing.00:53:34.800 --> 00:53:36.320


Yeah, yoga, exactly.00:53:36.800 --> 00:53:46.800


Yeah, and and and then when when when I when I do fascia, like we could end with the beautiful sinks, just so you could understand how easy it is to reset your nervous system.00:53:47.039 --> 00:53:54.559


So when you're in fascia, we're constantly twisting our body in very uncomfortable states because pressure is built everywhere.00:53:54.719 --> 00:54:01.440


So when we do these weird twists, like think of a wet towel and you're twisting and turn squeezing the water out, right?00:54:01.679 --> 00:54:02.800


We finally release.00:54:02.960 --> 00:54:06.880


When we're twisting and turning, we're accessing both sides of the brain.00:54:07.039 --> 00:54:20.639


And at that moment, if we say certain affirmation that you know or listening in what the body wants to say, like a lot of the times right now, I feel like saying, I'm relaxed, I'm not, I'm not overwhelmed, right?00:54:20.719 --> 00:54:22.880


Like, and so it reprograms your brain.00:54:23.360 --> 00:54:27.599


You just like so you're kind of crossing the meridian of your body, is what you're saying.00:54:28.000 --> 00:54:28.400


Right, right.00:54:28.559 --> 00:54:29.679


Yeah, exactly.00:54:29.840 --> 00:54:30.159


100%.00:54:30.719 --> 00:54:31.760


Oh, I'm gonna do that.00:54:32.079 --> 00:54:32.800


It's so interesting.00:54:32.880 --> 00:54:40.320


Yeah, so you know, um when when you're ready to end, we can do a quick little nervous system reset, you and I, just a quick one.00:54:40.639 --> 00:54:48.719


We could just seat it or standing, and you'll notice how easy it is to just um at that moment when having a panic attack.00:54:48.800 --> 00:55:00.719


Like yesterday, I was I was hosting a workshop, and uh this woman came and she was like very frazzled and all that, and she's like, and I was like, Settle down, breathe.00:55:01.119 --> 00:55:04.800


And I knew exactly okay, we'll have to do vagus nerve reset.00:55:05.039 --> 00:55:06.559


We need to do nervous system reset.00:55:06.639 --> 00:55:10.000


So I started doing that, and she was like, Whoa, are you an angel?00:55:10.159 --> 00:55:12.880


I'm like, no, I'm Earth Angel.00:55:14.480 --> 00:55:21.039


I'm just twisting and turning your body so that it could decompress, it could breathe again.00:55:21.199 --> 00:55:25.519


Um, I'm I'm now now you're waiting for me to guide you to breath, a breathing.00:55:25.599 --> 00:55:26.800


So I'm telling her to stop.00:55:26.960 --> 00:55:28.960


Inhale, exhale slow.00:55:29.039 --> 00:55:34.079


So it's like, if you could just remember to do that yourself, do some stretches.00:55:34.239 --> 00:55:40.000


It it decompresses those tight areas, and your fascia is basically bracing to fight that bear.00:55:40.159 --> 00:55:48.400


But we don't have a bear, so if you could just like decompress it and take in take breath in those tight areas, that's when energy will move.00:55:48.559 --> 00:55:48.800


Wow.00:55:48.960 --> 00:55:51.440


And if you add in affirmation, hallelujah.00:55:51.679 --> 00:55:52.800


Like your affirmations.00:55:53.039 --> 00:55:55.840


I'm always telling my kids, I have them on the walls.00:55:56.320 --> 00:55:57.599


Oh, I love it.00:55:58.159 --> 00:55:59.199


And and that's it.00:55:59.360 --> 00:56:01.280


Your cells are listening to all the time.00:56:01.440 --> 00:56:05.280


Going back to, you know, I just saw this book was sitting right next to me.00:56:05.599 --> 00:56:08.000


Oh my gosh, somebody told me to buy that book.00:56:08.079 --> 00:56:10.159


I have it in by my bedside.00:56:10.559 --> 00:56:12.079


Yeah, so this is the emoto.00:56:12.559 --> 00:56:15.199


This is the this is the emoto's work I was uh referring to.00:56:15.440 --> 00:56:16.159


Water changes.00:56:16.320 --> 00:56:16.880


Yeah, I read it.00:56:16.960 --> 00:56:17.519


Yeah, I have it.00:56:17.599 --> 00:56:18.079


It's so funny.00:56:18.159 --> 00:56:20.639


I I just mentioned it and I looked down and it's right here.00:56:20.880 --> 00:56:21.440


Oh wow.00:56:21.519 --> 00:56:23.199


I've meant I'm so glad you shared that.00:56:23.280 --> 00:56:24.880


Yeah, I'm telling you, I can talk to you forever.00:56:24.960 --> 00:56:26.639


You have so much information.00:56:26.960 --> 00:56:32.800


I mean, I really I really hope we could host a retreat together one month because I'm like, this would be so amazing.00:56:33.119 --> 00:56:37.519


I mean, I just um the interview is really needed.00:56:37.760 --> 00:56:48.159


It's and I I feel you've seen it and you touch on it, and I see it now that a a lot of what was happening in our bodies was just all emotional.00:56:48.239 --> 00:56:51.039


And I see it now still with my you're talking about, you know, kids.00:56:51.119 --> 00:56:52.000


And I I see it.00:56:52.159 --> 00:56:54.719


I see it in my own kids so through life experience.00:56:54.800 --> 00:57:00.800


And um and now I can't unsee it in that kind of lens for everyone around me.00:57:00.960 --> 00:57:13.119


And and so that's why I love having you on to really deepen planting that seeds in people to that understanding, you know, that truth of where it's all rooted.00:57:13.679 --> 00:57:14.480


All rooted.00:57:14.639 --> 00:57:17.039


And you know, to go back to do you do we have time?00:57:17.199 --> 00:57:23.119


Oh, yeah, we can I can go as long as you like, sister.00:57:23.280 --> 00:57:24.639


Don't don't say that.00:57:24.880 --> 00:57:28.320


You know you and I are going to be because I've been learning so much.00:57:28.400 --> 00:57:33.039


So I'm like this the studio will hand you the keys and be like, you two enjoy.00:57:33.360 --> 00:57:33.760


Perfect.00:57:33.840 --> 00:57:35.760


This could be a three-hour long podcast.00:57:35.840 --> 00:57:37.119


I'd be happy.00:57:38.000 --> 00:57:39.119


I love you so much.00:57:39.360 --> 00:57:46.880


Um you know, we were on the on the topic of stress, you know, um, even on the island, we talked about nervous system a lot.00:57:46.960 --> 00:57:53.679


Uh, we didn't get to do so much because we were so busy doing other things, but you and I always spoke about the nervous system.00:57:53.840 --> 00:57:57.119


Even today, a big um topic was nervous system.00:57:57.360 --> 00:58:00.239


So I Yeah, because I can feel you.00:58:00.400 --> 00:58:02.239


You were getting kind of anxious beforehand.00:58:02.559 --> 00:58:08.320


I was like, I'm just gonna give her a call and say, hey, everything is gonna be just fine.00:58:08.639 --> 00:58:09.199


Yeah.00:58:09.519 --> 00:58:12.559


You know, and and I and I after you hung up, I actually paused.00:58:12.719 --> 00:58:13.039


I paused.00:58:13.119 --> 00:58:14.800


I was like, hey body, like what the hell?00:58:14.880 --> 00:58:16.239


Like, what are you nervous about?00:58:16.400 --> 00:58:18.400


Like, this is a topic you love so much.00:58:18.559 --> 00:58:22.239


And you know what it what it was nervous about is overwhelming.00:58:22.400 --> 00:58:24.800


So it basically said, calm down.00:58:24.960 --> 00:58:28.960


Um, like you know how you said, how how can you explain this to people that don't know about this?00:58:29.360 --> 00:58:38.960


So a lot of the times, like my husband or my family members will tell me, like, after they listen to me, sometimes they feel overwhelmed because so much information.00:58:39.119 --> 00:58:41.280


Yeah, that's how I feel about my next book.00:58:41.360 --> 00:58:44.400


I'm like, well, I don't want to overwhelm people with this information.00:58:44.800 --> 00:58:47.039


Oh, even the book I'm writing, The Diamond Way.00:58:47.119 --> 00:58:52.320


So I looked at it and I was like, oh my goodness, people will like feel overwhelmed with this.00:58:52.400 --> 00:58:54.480


And then I got my husband to kind of glance over.00:58:54.559 --> 00:58:56.400


He's like, babe, this is like too much.00:58:56.559 --> 00:59:05.440


So I had to, I had to, I was like, okay, how can I give this to a grade five-year-old, uh grade five, not five-year-old, grade five student where they could understand?00:59:05.760 --> 00:59:08.239


Because, you know, this is how they're going to wet their feet.00:59:08.320 --> 00:59:13.039


And I told myself when I was freaking out, I was like, hey, there'll be a book two, a book three, a book four.00:59:13.199 --> 00:59:16.239


We could, we could slowly gradually improve that.00:59:16.320 --> 00:59:20.320


So today, after you hung up, when I was like, what's causing me this feeling, right?00:59:20.400 --> 00:59:21.760


Like, why am I acting like this?00:59:21.920 --> 00:59:26.880


And it was like, I do want, because the whole point you do this is to bring awareness, right?00:59:27.119 --> 00:59:31.920


And and if if anyone is hearing this, I want them to know that they're not broken.00:59:32.079 --> 00:59:44.639


My diamond way came from a carbon molecule stuck in under under uh earth, heat, pressure, time, and it could become a uh charcoal, but it decides to become the diamond.00:59:44.880 --> 00:59:51.199


So, what I want to say is that the pressure that we're that we go through doesn't break us, it reveals who we truly are.00:59:51.360 --> 00:59:53.760


We could become the diamond, we could radiate all.00:59:53.920 --> 00:59:58.800


Think of everything as a lesson, because what I got to know is that our body is always guiding.00:59:58.880 --> 01:00:00.960


So when you called me and you Gave me that pep talk.01:00:01.039 --> 01:00:02.800


I laughed, it helped my nervous system.01:00:02.960 --> 01:00:08.800


And then I was like, It because you called and you did that, you kind of broke my pattern for a bit, right?01:00:09.039 --> 01:00:13.519


Because you broke my pattern, I got into why am I acting like this?01:00:13.599 --> 01:00:15.679


And it was like, she's doing such a good cause.01:00:15.840 --> 01:00:17.760


Can you not overwhelm people?01:00:19.760 --> 01:00:23.199


Can you not go too sciencey and overwhelm people?01:00:23.440 --> 01:00:24.800


Can you stick to the topic?01:00:24.960 --> 01:00:26.880


I'm like, okay, I got it, you know.01:00:27.119 --> 01:00:34.800


So when we talk about nervous system, one of the a really good question was um, can someone truly heal if they're stuck in fight or flight?01:00:34.960 --> 01:00:40.639


So since we were on that topic, um, I just want to say the short answer is no, right?01:00:40.800 --> 01:00:44.239


Because again, going back to stress is meant to protect us.01:00:44.400 --> 01:00:49.199


So you cannot truly heal if your nervous system is in um stuck in fight or flight.01:00:49.360 --> 01:00:56.719


When the body is in survival mode, everything shifts towards protection, like that line coming, the bear coming, not growth, right?01:00:56.960 --> 01:00:59.519


So even that understanding is so huge.01:00:59.679 --> 01:01:07.199


Digestion slows because at that time your adrenals are ready to attack this whatever animal you're supposed to attack, let's say, right?01:01:07.440 --> 01:01:16.559


Detoxification slows, hormones change, the immune system weakens, and the uh the fascia tightens, as I mentioned earlier, right?01:01:16.639 --> 01:01:18.800


To brace for that danger.01:01:19.199 --> 01:01:23.360


So the body is preparing to survive, not to repair.01:01:23.679 --> 01:01:28.719


So even when you're in that stress state, your body is constantly trying to protect you.01:01:28.960 --> 01:01:34.559


So what most people don't realize is that fight or flight isn't just a mental state, it's a chemical state.01:01:34.719 --> 01:01:39.280


It changes your breath because you breathe faster, right?01:01:39.599 --> 01:01:46.239


Um, your your posture will change, you'll you'll harden, your biochemistry and even your perception of the world will change.01:01:46.400 --> 01:01:55.280


And there, and the deep and and basically the deeper truth is many people have been in fight or flight for so long that as I was saying with that woman, it feels normal to them.01:01:55.599 --> 01:02:04.719


They don't even know that their their body is bracing, their shoulders are tight, their jaws are locked, um, their breath is shallow, and they think that's just them.01:02:04.880 --> 01:02:07.760


I'm just that's just me that I always hear this.01:02:07.920 --> 01:02:14.079


In that state, the body simply cannot access the healing programs that's encoded in us, right?01:02:14.239 --> 01:02:16.079


And it physiologically can't.01:02:16.239 --> 01:02:23.199


It doesn't matter how clean your diet is or how many supplements we're taking, your nervous system doesn't feel safe.01:02:23.360 --> 01:02:28.320


And the healing, which um the healing switch, it never gets to turn on.01:02:28.639 --> 01:02:42.960


So that's why when I work with people, like again, whether it's in person or retreat, the first thing that I focus on them is get out of the intellectual safety, forget that, get into somatic safety, helping the body feel.01:02:43.119 --> 01:02:49.920


So I I I have them repeat over and over, and then I see if their shoulders are reducing, how their posture changes, and it's going back.01:02:50.000 --> 01:02:54.800


And you could try it like I'm safe to let go now and breathe out, right?01:02:54.960 --> 01:02:55.840


I'm safe to heal.01:02:56.880 --> 01:02:58.159


Yes, safety, right?01:02:58.239 --> 01:03:01.760


And then say those things when I do breath work actually.01:03:01.840 --> 01:03:06.480


Yeah, even even the most powerful, I'm safe to feel.01:03:07.119 --> 01:03:10.960


I'm safe to feel because people we're not allowed to feel our emotions.01:03:11.280 --> 01:03:14.239


If we feel too much, we we're we're extra.01:03:14.880 --> 01:03:16.320


I'm worthy of healing.01:03:16.400 --> 01:03:17.440


That's a huge one.01:03:17.519 --> 01:03:20.079


I'm worthy of healing, I'm worthy of love.01:03:20.960 --> 01:03:22.320


So it's so huge.01:03:22.480 --> 01:03:25.760


So the moment that happens, something like profound shifts.01:03:25.920 --> 01:03:34.239


The the breath, just the breath deepens, the body softens, the the cells move from like defense to repair now.01:03:34.320 --> 01:03:42.960


And the fascia finally, I could feel like when I'm holding onto someone, the fascia releases and it releases what it's been holding.01:03:43.039 --> 01:03:44.000


So it's so beautiful.01:03:44.159 --> 01:03:58.880


So healing can only happen when the body is out of survival mode and back into connection, when the body feels safe, uh, it becomes like receptive, you know, uh, it becomes intelligent again, it becomes open to transformation.01:03:59.280 --> 01:04:10.239


So this is such important information that I feel every provider treating patients, like I think of it obviously on the dental world, but there's so much fear in a dental office.01:04:10.400 --> 01:04:19.599


That's why I'm trying to educate dentists, like having just a weighted blanket, having doing breath work with your patient, getting them grounded first.01:04:19.760 --> 01:04:21.360


That's kind of what I'm teaching them.01:04:21.760 --> 01:04:27.360


And it's not an extra cost, it's not an extra anything, but you're gonna calm that nervous system because they're in fight and flight.01:04:27.519 --> 01:04:30.000


Most most patients I see they are.01:04:30.079 --> 01:04:34.079


They're afraid of being in the dental office, they don't want to be there, especially if they're gonna see the dentist.01:04:34.159 --> 01:04:41.199


Usually, if they're seeing the dentist, it's for a treatment, so for a filling a crown, you know, they see the dentist with me for 10 minutes just for a checkup.01:04:41.599 --> 01:04:45.840


But normally, if they're going for a procedure, they're gonna be in fight and flight 100%.01:04:46.400 --> 01:04:51.920


So in that profession alone, how much fear are patients coming in?01:04:52.079 --> 01:04:56.800


So, how are we expecting them to heal properly from that procedure?01:04:56.960 --> 01:05:02.960


And and I know we talked a lot about, you know, I learned all the meridians in the teeth, we're all interconnected.01:05:03.280 --> 01:05:19.360


So we see a lot of disease, you know, so rooted in if you have a um, if you have an infection in one tooth, well, it's connected to that meridian to another organ, so it's gonna affect that flow of energy, right?01:05:19.519 --> 01:05:28.320


And that's where it needs to be talked about more because it's a lot of times unrooted back in the mouth, and there's still an infection there.01:05:28.639 --> 01:05:31.760


There's still something we're not seeing, the flow that's blocked.01:05:32.000 --> 01:05:35.119


And now we can see it in the C B C T scans.01:05:35.199 --> 01:05:37.199


We can see there'll be actually a number.01:05:37.280 --> 01:05:38.239


It's actually pretty cool.01:05:38.639 --> 01:05:44.400


There's a number where there's a frequency change in the bone.01:05:45.199 --> 01:05:46.079


It's pretty cool.01:05:46.320 --> 01:05:46.960


Yeah, yeah.01:05:47.119 --> 01:05:48.639


So what machine is this?01:05:48.800 --> 01:05:50.719


It's called a CBT scan.01:05:51.119 --> 01:05:57.119


And C B T scan, and um C B T scan.01:05:57.280 --> 01:05:58.159


C B C T scan.01:05:58.239 --> 01:05:59.280


I don't think I said that right now.01:05:59.760 --> 01:06:00.079


Yeah.01:06:00.320 --> 01:06:08.880


And so that scan will literally show a different number where the frequency changes.01:06:09.920 --> 01:06:14.079


So that energy and there's that, and and the lower the number showing.01:06:14.239 --> 01:06:26.639


So for for me, I I've you know, I've done it in my kids and and I see it in patients, and that's how we catch cavitations, which is uh cavitations is an infection in the bone.01:06:27.199 --> 01:06:57.199


So that's how we find those in the bone, and uh which happens a lot of times from people removing wisdom teeth because there's fear when they're removing the wisdom teeth, and then the bone it doesn't heal, it's not able to heal properly, so it causes a cavitation, which constantly causes inflammation in the body and whatever tooth obviously it's the the you know the third molar, which in interconnected, depending if it's the top, it'll be connected to your heart, right?01:06:57.280 --> 01:06:59.440


And the the bottom connected to your gut.01:06:59.760 --> 01:07:02.719


So that's why you know this.01:07:03.119 --> 01:07:03.760


I see it.01:07:04.480 --> 01:07:06.639


I see it, it makes so much sense to me.01:07:07.119 --> 01:07:08.559


Isn't the body so amazing?01:07:09.360 --> 01:07:12.239


I'm so passionate, so passionate about learning my body.01:07:12.320 --> 01:07:12.800


I always have.01:07:12.880 --> 01:07:14.320


That's all I've ever studied, you know?01:07:14.559 --> 01:07:25.760


Yeah, and now I is the C BCT scan offered only like through dental work or so not every dentist has it, so you'd have to kind of call around.01:07:25.920 --> 01:07:36.400


A lot of times uh they're the ones who are orthodontists who do airway, but I'm primarily suggest I'm a big advocator for seeing a biological dentist.01:07:37.039 --> 01:07:38.800


They should have this machine.01:07:38.960 --> 01:07:40.639


I mean, those are the questions you would ask.01:07:40.719 --> 01:07:45.280


I have a few episodes actually that I can share where there's a listed question.01:07:45.519 --> 01:07:50.079


There's also a website you can look at, but there's a listed question you could just pick up the phone.01:07:50.239 --> 01:07:53.199


Like I do that because I'm very particular where I work.01:07:53.360 --> 01:07:56.559


So I'll I'll go around and just make it seem like I'm a patient.01:07:56.639 --> 01:07:58.400


But like, oh, do you have a CBD scan?01:07:58.480 --> 01:08:04.639


Do you do you do the uh the saliva swab where we check the microbiome in the mouth?01:08:04.800 --> 01:08:07.599


Do you do ozone therapy?01:08:07.760 --> 01:08:19.760


Do you do so uh that's what biological dentistry will do and look for because that could be also if someone's not healing anymore, like not healing.01:08:19.920 --> 01:08:21.279


Well, let's look in the mouth.01:08:21.600 --> 01:08:30.720


Let's see if there's um a block in the mirror meridians from this infection growing in the bone or tooth or the gums, or yeah.01:08:31.039 --> 01:08:33.039


So so a lot of times I love it.01:08:33.279 --> 01:08:35.520


Yeah, so that's I love this so much.01:08:35.680 --> 01:08:45.920


I actually we all need to go to the dentist, but I'm so scared because a lot of the, as you know, a lot of the dentist places they have so much chemical exposure, heavy metal exposure.01:08:46.079 --> 01:08:51.199


Yes, the heavy metals that um you're supposed to get remove it properly.01:08:51.439 --> 01:08:56.560


They and they the smart it's called the smart, uh it's called smart, the way they have to do it.01:08:56.640 --> 01:08:57.039


Yes.01:08:57.359 --> 01:09:09.439


Yeah, so I mean I didn't know, I wish I knew you then, but I didn't have this, and so I went and they didn't do what uh the smart way, and I was exposed to more heavy metals when they were taking it out.01:09:09.520 --> 01:09:12.079


So then I had to go through this whole um detox.01:09:12.560 --> 01:09:13.920


Yeah, just for the mercury, yeah.01:09:14.079 --> 01:09:22.560


Yeah, and and did I go through uh massive fear 100%, and I realized that I was getting sick.01:09:22.800 --> 01:09:30.960


I mean, of course, the heavy metals were there, but I was making myself more sick from that fear that I was carrying like, oh my god, heavy metals.01:09:31.119 --> 01:09:34.079


So then finally I had to stop and I was like, you know, I eat really well.01:09:34.239 --> 01:09:38.479


Um I'm going to fast and everything is gonna be gone from my body.01:09:38.640 --> 01:09:57.359


Again, I claimed it, the faith came in, I affirmed, and it heavy metals are everywhere, and so with the constantly we're watching how we could, you know, maybe uh once a week I take down that tomitcious earth, um, zeolite, those are great for heavy metal binding, right?01:09:57.439 --> 01:10:07.840


So, or like uh if I want to go more the herbal, I make a shot glass for kale, basil, cilantro, and cilantro and basil are great for heavy metal extraction.01:10:08.640 --> 01:10:09.439


Right, yes, okay.01:10:09.760 --> 01:10:10.479


Yeah, yeah.01:10:10.720 --> 01:10:12.960


So um beef, I know we're gonna be.01:10:13.039 --> 01:10:14.960


I know, I feel like but this is so important.01:10:15.119 --> 01:10:38.399


So, because obviously our environment, like mold is one that it seems like we go on trips to California, we stay in a hotel, and uh my my son is such a messenger for mold, and my mom sneezes and and and like you said, we can't our environment will always have these things, so maybe not fear it, but also use these binders, use these things to constantly a little bit, you know, detox it out of our bodies, right?01:10:38.640 --> 01:10:39.199


Right, right.01:10:39.359 --> 01:10:42.640


And I always tell people to begin with observation, right?01:10:42.720 --> 01:10:43.760


Like not perfection.01:10:43.920 --> 01:10:47.119


Like today after your call, I I went into observation mode.01:10:47.199 --> 01:10:53.680


Um, and notice how your body responds to everyday things, like the food you eat, the conversations you have, the pace you live at.01:10:53.760 --> 01:10:57.439


Do you feel more open, warm, or clear afterwards?01:10:57.520 --> 01:10:59.439


Or do you feel more tense and heavy?01:10:59.600 --> 01:11:03.039


Those sensations are your body's way of communicating with you, right?01:11:03.199 --> 01:11:08.960


And the body speaks in patterns, so tightness, fatigue, cravings, uh pressure, even inspiration.01:11:09.119 --> 01:11:11.439


Like you, you, you don't get any inspiration, right?01:11:11.520 --> 01:11:18.560


When you learn to read those signals that your body is constantly sending you, you realize your body has been guiding you all along.01:11:18.800 --> 01:11:24.880


So that's why you know after after I spoke to you, I went into that observation model.01:11:25.119 --> 01:11:26.000


I was like, what's going on?01:11:26.159 --> 01:11:32.640


And then you your my body was saying, calm down, don't overwhelm people, don't go lot of into the science.01:11:32.800 --> 01:11:38.000


Like you're here to make aware to people what is one thing that you want them to walk away with.01:11:38.159 --> 01:11:42.399


So um, so I I think we touched base on that and I and I loved everything about it.01:11:42.800 --> 01:11:48.399


Because I know we I could we'll have another podcast 100%, but I want people to be able to find you.01:11:48.560 --> 01:11:49.520


How can they find you?01:11:49.600 --> 01:11:52.479


And your book, The Diamond Way, will be out soon, right?01:11:52.720 --> 01:11:53.920


Or is you soon?01:11:54.239 --> 01:11:59.359


But how can they if somebody wants to work with you or wants to go on one of your retreats, how they can find you?01:11:59.680 --> 01:12:01.760


So I'm revamping my whole website.01:12:01.840 --> 01:12:03.680


So they could go to my uh Instagram.01:12:03.840 --> 01:12:05.520


I make up, I'm making updates there.01:12:05.680 --> 01:12:08.399


I'm also revamping my whole website, zenia.com.01:12:08.560 --> 01:12:18.960


It's on my Instagram, and um just revamping because you know, the more clients I deal with, I'm noticing how to make it more simpler, how to make it more um attainable to people, right?01:12:19.119 --> 01:12:28.319


And as a as a thank you to you, Melissa, as a token of my gratitude, I actually um created a simple practice called the art of listening to your body.01:12:28.479 --> 01:12:32.560


Um, I I do that with a client, but it's very curative with each client.01:12:32.640 --> 01:12:44.880


But for for your listeners, I wanted them to have a step-by-stay, a step-by-step, seven-day process of how to listen to their body and really get into the I can't wait to share it and listen to the signal.01:12:45.119 --> 01:12:54.159


So um by the time you know, I'm going to send it over to you, or like I could send you my link and the and the the code for them to get it for free.01:12:54.399 --> 01:12:58.239


And um, they could start a seven-day practice to really connect with your body.01:12:58.399 --> 01:12:58.560


Wow.01:12:58.720 --> 01:12:59.600


Because that's powerful.01:12:59.760 --> 01:13:00.640


I can't wait.01:13:00.880 --> 01:13:02.399


Thank you for what a gift.01:13:02.640 --> 01:13:05.600


I mean, everybody, this this is a huge gift.01:13:06.000 --> 01:13:10.079


This is a huge gift to even learn how to listen to our bodies.01:13:10.239 --> 01:13:11.600


This is this is powerful.01:13:11.760 --> 01:13:14.159


I, Zenia, I love you and I miss you.01:13:14.319 --> 01:13:15.359


I can't wait to see you.01:13:15.439 --> 01:13:17.840


You gotta come visit with me and with me.01:13:18.159 --> 01:13:19.039


Uh come to Canada.01:13:19.119 --> 01:13:23.119


You know, I always do come visit, but uh I will have to continue.01:13:23.199 --> 01:13:25.359


I feel like there's still so much we can share.01:13:25.760 --> 01:13:36.800


You have you know so much information that is um uh vital and uh for survival and for living a life of joy and happiness and just that awareness.01:13:37.039 --> 01:13:38.720


So I just want to thank you.01:13:38.960 --> 01:13:41.439


And um you are such a blessing.01:13:41.520 --> 01:13:42.640


You are Earth Angel.01:13:42.720 --> 01:13:43.199


You really are.01:13:43.920 --> 01:13:45.600


So are you, my soul sister.01:13:45.840 --> 01:13:46.560


I love you.01:13:46.800 --> 01:13:50.079


Thank you for having me, inviting me into your beautiful world.01:13:50.319 --> 01:13:51.199


I love you so much.01:13:51.359 --> 01:13:54.880


The moment we met, I I don't know if you remember, we had that instant connection.01:13:55.119 --> 01:13:58.079


And you know, you mentioned earlier about hosting retreats.01:13:58.239 --> 01:13:59.520


I already saw that it happened.01:13:59.680 --> 01:14:00.079


Oh, okay.01:14:01.039 --> 01:14:01.520


Let's go.01:14:02.319 --> 01:14:10.640


So so let's honestly make it into reality because I've been doing a lot of women's retreats lately, uh, collaborating, and it's been beautiful.01:14:10.800 --> 01:14:17.520


So you're such a gem to this world, and you have such wonderful, like so much powerful information that people don't know.01:14:17.600 --> 01:14:25.199


Like I've learned so much about the dental work, and one of the fear about the whole dental world prevents me and my kids to go to the dentist.01:14:25.359 --> 01:14:30.640


I try to find biological dentists, and like I said, I went for heavy metals and it still wasn't.01:14:30.800 --> 01:14:32.079


So we'll we'll have to do that.01:14:32.319 --> 01:14:33.439


It's hard in Canada, trust me.01:14:33.520 --> 01:14:36.960


I've tried to help some people to find one, and it's it they're out there.01:14:37.119 --> 01:14:38.079


Yeah, there definitely are.01:14:38.159 --> 01:14:41.119


I mean, especially where you're at, but it is it is hard.01:14:41.279 --> 01:14:48.560


And I know a lot of people always ask me too, and I'm like, okay, well, let me call around because I have the questions and whatnot, but you know, I could can't do that for everybody.01:14:48.640 --> 01:14:54.239


But I do have a list of questions that you could just call and ask, and I'll send that to you too.01:14:54.399 --> 01:14:54.560


Yes.01:14:54.960 --> 01:14:56.319


And uh yeah, let's do it.01:14:56.479 --> 01:14:59.840


I I know a lot of women I would love to come to this retreat.01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:04.079


Let's go teach uh teach the world how to listen to their bodies and how to hear.01:15:04.399 --> 01:15:05.119


I love it.01:15:05.359 --> 01:15:05.840


I love it.01:15:06.000 --> 01:15:06.880


Yes, let's do it.01:15:07.119 --> 01:15:11.199


Um thank you again, thank you again for all your time and your beautiful presence.01:15:11.520 --> 01:15:13.039


Thank you, thank you for your knowledge.